Switch It Up – Poetic Brain Dump #soc

SOC = Steam of Consciousness 

  • Set the timer for 5 mins.
  • Get comfortable.
  • Type anything that comes to mind.
  • This is a way to clear the mind before starting the day or before going to bed.
  • This may not make sense to anyone but me (maybe, ha!)
  • The people mentioned are real people. The names may/may not be their real names.
  • This is unedited.


Switch it up. 

The bed has 4 aides and none of them are right or wrong. 

The bed doesn’t get you out of it.

The walls don’t talk.

The streets don’t watch.

The grapevine doesn’t echo.

Raisins don’t dance.

Lions don’t laugh…wait do they?

Our train of thought’s name isn’t Thomas or the little engine that could.

It is circus.

It is illusion.

It is zoo.

All of our thoughts are animals who used to be wild.

Used to risk takers.

Now caged. Taught to live as spectacles.

Taught that spectacle is safe.

A dog that will bring a bone will take one.

Because bones aren’t supposed to hurt anyone.

In fact, nothing is supposed to hurt anyone.

#theend #shellyism #soc 

Arguing with myself -Stream of Consciousness 12/2/16 #soc

  • Set the timer for 5 mins.
  • Get comfortable.
  • Type anything that comes to mind.
  • This is a way to clear the mind before starting the day or before going to bed.
  • This may not make sense to anyone but me (maybe, ha!)
  • The people mentioned are real people. The names may/may not be their real names.
  • This is unedited.


This chair is not comfortable. I should get a better chair. It’s early. Writing a to-do list is such a great idea. I may or may/not do everything on my to-do list but it feels good to write. When I am coaching full time I will coach clients to do that. Hmmm….Coaching. I have so much information to give people. I thing a lot about my worth. Am I worthy of being called a coach, a great mom, a great girlfriend. Wait..it just hit me. Am I a great girlfriend. EEk! Who knows but the dudes I’ve dumped or who have dumped me. Ha! First of all I am worthy of whatever the hell I want to be worthy of being or being without explanation. Second of all I am a great girlfriend I think. Did I just start kinda arguing with myself. LOL! That’s stupid.

I want to spend life helping others via motivational speaking, coaching, clothing, and stuff. Wait…lol! That’s only partially true. I really want to spend my life being be open and freely while waving people along for the journey. I want people to see me and be encouraged. Sheesh 5 minutes is not a long time. I am thinking more thoughts and wanting to keep writing. This alarm is annoying. I’m still typing. Wait am I defying the alarm that I set. I must STOP arguing with myself. Ha!

Thank you for reading.

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Stream of Consciousness – 12/1/16 #soc

  • Set the timer for 5 mins.
  • Get comfortable.
  • Type anything that comes to mind.
  • This is a way to clear the mind before starting the day or before going to bed.
  • This may not make sense to anyone but me (maybe, ha!)
  • The people mentioned are real people. The names may/may not be their real names.
  • This is unedited.


Deep breaths are awesome. I should take more of them.
Yesterday was amazing. This women in leadership rountable/meeting/gathering of kick ass women was super dope.
Man, Aerica be hooking me up. I am so thankful for Christine’s intro. I kinda wish Christine was still here. I wanna talk to her about all the things I’m thinking. Man, I wish I was still a apart of Femex. I wanna talk to all of them. Anyway, today is a great day. Ah man, I missed the New Moon. I was gonna do a whole New Moon ritual. I felt like I needed to. Maybe the universe is saying I just need to keep doing what I am doing.

Meditating everyday and taking time for devotion has been invigorating. Lemme stop. I only used that word bc people might read this. I don’t use the word “invigorating” often. It feels like a hiccup of a word to stuff in your mouth. Words are weird. I was also thinking that surfing is weird. I was telling Epiphany last night that I am not sure who look at a huge overwhelming pile of water and thought “hmm I should take a piece of wood and ride across that.” Oooh…I should research the beginning of surfing for my motivational speeches. YES!

-Time’s up-

My goal is to do this exercise everyday. I feel invigorated (ha!) and more ready for my day.

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Finding Your Flow: Day 1- Finding Security


Today’s meditation was about operating with secure energy vs insecure energy. About a year ago, during a Reiki session it was revealed that I was living in fear. The person who performed the session supplied me with a mantra – “the universe will protect me.” Since then, I repeat this mantra to myself anytime fear arises in my spirit. Today’s meditation was a reminder that feeling safe allows me to overcome the fear of not knowing what will happen next in my life.


1. Observe and be with my feelings. I don’t usually want to have any feelings, therefore I deny them often. Being pregnant doesn’t allow this. This is a great time to engage in my feelings.

2. Insecure Energy. When I feel insecure I feel anxious and I throw myself into planning mode. I try to calculate the move of every significant person in my life and every dollar in my bank account. Insecurity clouds my judgement of what to do and leaves me with lots of questions.

3. Secure Energy. When I feel secure I feel confident, unstoppable, immortal even. These are the most powerful moments in my life. These are the moments where I usually have the most random idea which ends up impacting the most people.

4. Meditation is powerful. Who knew that sitting down, hushing up, and breathing could result in better health!

5. Safety is real. Safe is something I can actually be.

6. I speak up, I stand up, I walk in what I feel because I feel safe doing so.

7. The world is more safe than we have been led to believe.

8. Feeling insecure will create a fear of things that are not real.

9. I am good at reminding myself that I am safe. I am now moving into a space of maintaining feelings of security for longer periods of time.

10. Fear and security are like switches in the brain. When fear is on, security is off. When security is on, fear is off.

Finding Your Flow: 21 Day Meditation with Deepak and Oprah


I was recently discharged from an abusive employer (happy about that), I am about four months pregnant with my third child at 33 years old, my children are happy, I am in a very loving relationship with the man of my dreams, I have progressed as an artists/writer, and life seems to be flowing perfectly. However, I am in a very transitional space. I still have no clue what I want to do with my life. I want to be a life coach, I want to travel, I want to be a stay at home mom, I want to write books, I want to turn my books into plays, I want to start social media management again, and I want to start a movement! I decided to partake in Oprah and Deepak’s newest 21 day meditation “Finding Your Flow.”

This is 21 Days of guided meditation geared toward shaping life energies toward a free-flowing space of productivity and peace. I plan to document the experience by engaging in the meditation each morning then blogging my vibe/reflections after the meditation. Each blog post will be labeled with the title of overall meditation, the day and title of the meditation focus for that day. I don’t want to go on this journey expecting an answer or trying to shape the end result. I am going to relax, stay open, and submit to the meditation practice.

What better place to blog this journey than REGRET NOTHING WRITE EVERYTHING!

Here we go! Let the journey begin!


How to get over “IT” in 3 Days


When life gives lemons you don’t always know the recipe for lemonade. Sometimes you’re at a lost for steps to take to get over the hump of “IT.” What is IT? IT is “intuitive truth.” The realization that you are facing something your inner self just can’t ignore. IT is real. IT hurts. IT makes you suffer. IT gives you bubbling butterfly guts. IT has you on edge while watching cartoons and comedies. IT is consuming you. I have decided that IT will not conquer me! I have developed my own 3 day process for getting over IT.

Day 1 – Day of Feeling: cry, breakdown, feel humiliated, find blame in you, the thing, or the other person; phone a friend and yell in their ear about how your intuition has to be truth; hang up on your friend (text and apologize); take a walk; don’t do anything to hurt yourself physically; call yourself names (you will correct these on day 2).

Day 2 – Day of Reckoning: Ask questions of yourself about what’s next. Answer your own questions. Have an epiphany. Communicate with the necessary parties. You made it through the most hurtful part of IT. Sage! Turn everything you said yesterday into something positive. Know that you’re human. Know that IT is the result of human action. Know that from today on every decision made is yours. Know that you can make a different decision than the last. Repeat to yourself “I have the power to create the reality I desire.”

Day 3 – Create the reality that you desire. Listen to music that only reflects the love you want. Speak words that reflect the person you are working to be. Wear clothes that show you as comfortable in the beautiful parts of you. Know that you’re the creator of the things you want to see in your world. Know that you can live with or without IT!

Relax. The thing that brought IT about will die in it’s own time. You may not be able to control life’s whirlwinds but you can be happy while staying afloat. Happiness is a choice. Find a joyful bathing suit and JUST KEEP SWIMMING!

Regret Nothing Write Everything!

LIVE DC: K. Michelle at the Howard Theatre

ORIGINALLY PRESSED BY: Brightest Young Things (BYT)
February 25, 2013

All photos courtesy K. Michelle

K. Michelle – An artist most comfortable in her own skin as evidenced by her getting completely nude during my backstage interview following a phenomenal performance at the Howard Theatre, DC. She has been noted by media as dramatic, ratchet, and nonsensical even. However, she is a classically trained pianist, a guitarist and walks in an honesty that most are afraid of. She’s Tennessee’s finest crazy, sexy, cool star most known for her appearance on VH1‘s “Love & Hip-Hop Atlanta.”

Fans were onboard and ready to ride the “K. Wave” from the first note of opening song “You Gonna Learn Today.” She was the same sincere authentic character from the reality show cracking jokes with catchphrases like “F*ck the haters, they make ya roots itch.” With a salute to R&B singers she performed her rendition of her favorite songs by Monica, Mary J. Blidge, and Brandy. Her way of showing love for Go-Go music was an unsuccessful attempt at Jill Scott’s “Love.” Without congas a cowbell or some instrument to give a Go-Go sound – It’s not a Go-Go song! DC appreciated the attempt.

The highlights of the show included a bold yet entertaining serenade of “Can’t Raise a Man,” to pictures of her ex-lover and NY Knicks player J.R. Smith on the LCD screens. The show took an emotional turn with her teary-eyed heartfelt somber performance of “I Don’t Like Me” while sitting in front of a vanity mirror. “No matter how many wigs I put on, or how cute I think I am there are always those days where I don’t feel so pretty” she uttered. The crowd cheered in agreement. The “K. Wave” climaxed at an operatic performance of “The Coochie Symphony.” Even though this was a satiric ditty about “her coochie being broke” her vocal range was impeccable. The most awkward moment in the show was a beautiful tribute to God with gospel song “Yesterday” by Mary Mary which was followed by a song that repeated the lyrics “f*ck love, I want the sex and the money.”

Nonetheless, K. Michelle’s vocals are a force to be reckoned with. Her vocal ability is far too advanced to minimize her to being just the next “R&B queen.” Her personality coupled with extraordinary talent place her in a category yet to be created by the media. Before the singing the last song she announced that she would no longer be a cast member of Love & Hip-Hop after the coming season. Fans were disappointed but at this point it doesn’t matter. At the beginning of the show the audience may have been divided between fans of her music and fans of her personality on the show. However, at the end of her charismatic performance the audience left as fans of K. Michelle specifically. Aside from blowing me away with her performance interviewing her erased all skepticism of her as “just another ratchet fad.”

What do you want people who have not been exposed to the reality show nor your music to know about you?

I am a musician. I started playing the piano when I was 9 years old. I am a very outspoken person and a mother. They have to get to know me not what they hear. I think media plays a big part in it. Media is going to create you to be who they want you to be and not who you are.

I’ve noticed that you don’t talk about your family much. What does your mother think of all of this?

I keep them out of it. People always question “where’s her son? you don’t have your son.” I don’t bring him up. I have help. That’s not their business. If it wasn’t for my mom I don’t know what the heck I would do. I flew my mom out for the first time (BB Kings in NY 2/19/20). We have been very private because you have to maintain something.

What advice would you give a young singer starting out and is wondering where to go?

Fight hard for what you want. If you know that’s what you want, fight for it. It’s not going to come easy. Everybody that it came easy for is not around anymore.

How do you think leaving the cast of Love & Hip-Hop will affect your career?

The fans know now (that I am talented) and that will keep them. The show introduced me to people, but the fans got me the deal (Atlantic). As a writer, you never know, I may change my mind. It has been very difficult as a mother. It’s been very difficult to speak positivity upon black women and then go pop one in their face. We all as people contradict ourselves. We’re human. I’m just at the point where I don’t want to fight. I just want to be happy.

What’s next for K. Michelle?

The album (Rebellious Soul), a single, some movie stuff. I am opening up my first store. I am executive producing my first show “Minnie Mona.”

When asked if there was anything she would like to say she replied humbly “I just want to say thank you.” All ratchetness aside I predict that K. Michelle is in a transformation that has the potential to render her undeniable.

Kane Mayfield on sparring, poetry, and a “beautiful drug”

I had the chance to catch up with Mania Music Group artist, Kane Mayfield outside of the Emergence Community Arts Collective after his feature at Washington DC’s longest running poetry open mic “Spit Dat.” A rapper featuring at a poetry venue means being heard with high lyrical expectations less the rowdy bar, dj, and crowd heckling. Kane surpassed all expectations by orchestrating an acapella performance with rhyming over a soul clap from the crowd, and flowing with a beat streaming live from his head to his lips. Kane is no stranger to poetry venues, but does not write poems. He owns his art as rap, however, developing the relationships between various arts diversify a rapper into an appeal stretching from the educated mind, to ratchet acts, to street life and back.

Explaining the difference between the experience of a rapper and the experience of a poet, he stated:

“rap is like sparring. You compete until you get to the top then people just want to be entertained. Poetry is the exact opposite. Being a poet is entertainment until you get to a certain level then it’s competition.” 

Rappers aren’t always welcomed into poetry spaces. Even though rap is a form of poetry, poetry is not a form of rap therefore, they are often considered to be two very different animals. When asked how does it feel to be a rapper performing at a poetry event. He replied:

“It’s like the story of The Golden Fleece, where a character on a journey reached a comfortable place. The comfortable place was a welcoming atmosphere but was not the golden fleece. Poetry venues are comfortable for rappers because you don’t have to be somebody to be a poet. You can just be you. In rap, you have to be somebody. Like I said, poetry is from hugs to gloves, rap is from gloves to hugs. This is why sometimes you will see rappers hiding out as poets in poetry venues. I’ve come to own who I am. I am a rapper.” 

Kane has an awesome story of being a rapper who decided maybe rap wouldn’t work out so he went on a traditional life path. This included becoming a financial advisor, working on Wall Street, and becoming engaged to be married. This was never his initial plan. Kane Mayfield is and always will be a rapper. With his slick talk, personable yet street life backed mentality and knowledge of finances I can imagine he gives industry execs a run for their own money!

My interpretation of the first video off of his latest project Rhymes by Kane: Thievery Corporation Edition called “Beautiful Drug” begins with the impeccable emotional story told between images of beauty, the struggle addiction, and savior complex nature of friendship. My honest initial thought was “WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?!” The story seemed typical; dead guy in opening scene coupled with the song title “beautiful drug” means guy must have been killed by drug dealer. The woman with pink hair and glass of wine represents a drunken out of mind beauty which is the result of gaining a certain level of high. The black and white images appear to be a back story related to the progression of the story. The images of Kane rapping in color appear to be the present day conversation between Kane and himself in the mirror about what happened to his friend. As the story forms toward how/who killed the guy previously shown dead in the opening scene I expected to see him avenge his friend by hunting down a potential killer. However, I was totally off! At the conclusion of the video it is actually Kane whose the drug dealer that killed his friend who was a drug dealing drug addict. I immediately wanted to know/see more. I watched the video two and three times over listening to the lyrics and watching the story unfold backwards and forwards in front of me. In an attempt to save his friend from being killed by the drugs they both dealed he took his life in a savior/hero fashion. The video and lyrics of “Beautiful Drug portray the realism behind the misery of addiction combined with the misery of those affected by the addicted.

After just meeting Kane and interviewing him about poetry I wanted to call him up and ask him “are you sure you’re not a poet!” If not a poet, I would say he is ultimately a creative mastermind and storyteller to which much attention deserves to be paid.

Read more: http://0351de3.netsolhost.com/WordPress/2012/11/09/kane-mayfield-on-sparring-poetry-and-a-beautiful-drug/#ixzz2C1FGGLjg

When too much goes too far – On Alicia Keys’ “Girl on Fire,” R & B vs. Electro and creative diversity


Shelly Bell, Writer
Brooklyn Bodega

When celebrities start accomplishing goals and completing tasks that are unrelated to their musical careers, they often delude themselves into believing that their various forms of artistic creativity should co-mingle. According to Billboard Magazine, since the last time we’ve heard from soul-pop superstar Alicia Keys, she has begun co-managing her career, produced her first Broadway play, directed her first short film, executive-produced a made-for-TV movie and an upcoming theatrical film, designed her own Reebok shoe line and recently launched an animated storytelling app for children. She explains in the article that now she feels more open and more free. However, after accomplishing many goals what she likely means is that she feels more in control of her career(s). When her new album Girl on Fire drops on November 27th fans will be able to judge whether this new level of control is musically a good thing or a bad thing.  The album’s eponymous lead single – an arguably lightweight anthem of women’s empowerment –  sadly falls short by comparison to the more lively #1 hits from artists like Rihanna and Katy Perry. Possibly, her gargantuan schedule and numerous accomplishments show an artist who, in straying from what made her initially successful, has gone too far.

Thus far her image has been filled with typical music industry transformations. Emerging as a “cool curvy B-Girl from the block,” morphing into the “thin edgy haircut/color barbie” look. Professionally, the cute, piano-playing female sensation lacking dance moves with the heartfelt Songs in A Minor morphed in many ways. She lost weight, changed her hair, became a mother and a wife and released Unthinkable, plus a career-redefining feature on Jay Z’s “Empire State of Mind.” Her career transformation complete, “Girl On Fire” (The Inferno Version) is not fiery at all when compared to a David Guetta track or any Rihanna song. The definition of “fire” in the music industry has changed from tight long winded melody to fist pump repetitive catchy lyrical structure. Even the rapid fire spitting Nicki Minaj sounds like a suffocating caged monster on this one. She had no choice! How do you blaze a track that sounds more like water than anything remotely related to inferno?

The type of “fire” Keys may have been trying to portray should be closely mirrored to Rihanna’s “Diamond” or Katy Perry’s “Firework” or one of the hit pop singles burning up Billboard charts with topics like living young, living free, or succeeding at life’s challenges. The words to “Girl On Fire” are not inspirational enough to survive in the age where electronic dance/pop music with raging vocals, hard beats, and dancing bodies are turning crowds from adoring on-looking, lighter waving fans to roaring, fist pumping, body flailing followers. If the single “Girl on Fire” is a representation of her new album or her new found freedom then I also predict that the week of November 27th will be a disappointment for our girl on fire who doesn’t appear to be on fire in this single at all.

The hottest things about Alicia Keys right now is not purely her musical talent in the realm of mainstream R&B but more in exactly what she started off as….A WRITER! I look forward to the blazing mother, wife, and vocalist simply returning to the idea of who she already was instead of indulging in what she’s been told she could become. I can imagine that producing Broadway plays and theatrical films makes Alicia Keys feel more free because these are avenues that allow a writer an extreme amount of creative freedom. Her accomplishments are a sign of transition from what she has been doing to what she will realize is what she has always wanted to do. It is very likely that movie goers and Broadway play fanatics will have an appreciation for her art that she won’t see in the music industry alone. This appreciation will be one she can’t ignore. I predict that in the coming year we will see a less Hip-Hop/R&B Alicia Keys and a more of a playwright/songwriting Alicia Keys. It makes no sense to battle the music industry beast when you can ride the beautiful movie industry stallion.

Alicia Keys has fallen short in basking in the largess of soul’s life in the fervor of electro house. Possibly staying the course as a writer and waiting for her artistic lane as one of the most bankable stars in 21st century pop to clear is a better idea. The girl’s on fire, alright. But the timeless soft glow of warm embers against the neon extremes of the moment? There’s no comparison, leaving November 27th’s album a great idea in theory, but flawed in execution. Keys, though, is clearly still a brightly burning and impassioned creative artist worthy of success. The lesson here? Too much can go too far.

Read more: http://0351de3.netsolhost.com/WordPress/2012/11/08/on-alicia-keys-fire-movies-control/#ixzz2C1BLUAv1


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