Paul cooked breakfast. Sunday is becoming our family convo over breakfast day. The kids shared their concerns about having two parents. I asked them “well didn’t you always want a dad in the house?” Their response was “umm NO!” I was a lil shocked. I guess Disney and other media had me tricked into thinking every kid wanted a mom and dad in the house. Lol! Josiah said he did at one point but after getting to know his dad’s personality vs. mine he said he was OK with me being the majority caregiver. Imani said she doesn’t really care either way. Josiah was most concerned about getting different instructions from each parent. We explored that and assured them that Paul and I are on the same page. They don’t have to worry about that. The one thing they were in full agreement on is they don’t want us to argue. They’ve never seen me arguing with anyone and they don’t want to. Growing up I never saw my parents argue, therefore I never argue in front of my kids. Paul and I are in full agreement on that so we assured them that they won’t have to worry about that. The conversation was deep, fun, and productive. I give thanks for the type of people I have groomed them to be and the environment that Paul and I are creating as parents. #countdowntobirth#ShellysBelly #BabySkylar
Attend a Washington Nationals game or Nah? NAAAHHH! Upon attempting walking the steps at my house then standing in an awesome warm shower I concluded that walking the Nats stadium was not a good idea. This is my third baby and my uterus ain’t what it used to be. One of the midwives at the practice I go to says that the third baby is usually the troublemaker. I have to agree. I’m having shooting pains in my pelvic area and she feels like she weighs a ton! I spent day 5 in bed. I don’t actually want to go into labor. I’ve never been in labor before. I hear it’s ten times worse than the contractions I’m feeling now. I’m trying to take it easy for the next 4 days. 4 days! I can’t believe it! So super hype! #countdowntobirth#ShellysBelly#BabySkylar
Easy peezy doctor’s appt. Now we wait for Skylar to nudge or Oct. 2nd, whichever comes first. I received some awesome mail! One item is a book I’m published in (edited by Sheena C. Howard) and the other is the baby book (gifted from ElectricLady Deniece P). Then the Kells Kakery team shipped me a nursing pillow. On top of all of that my daughter (Imani Bell ) cooked the bomb manwich and fries for dinner! Yesterday felt like it was my birthday! Lol! I am the happiest pregnant lady ever right now! Words cannot express the thanks I feel right now. Next up….Nats game, preparing the house, getting my mama (Stephanie Bell) to get my Moby wrap popping, more eating, more sleeping, and patiently awaiting baby Skylar! Let Day 5 begin!#countdowntobirth#ShellysBelly#BabySkylar
Thank God for friends who’ll help you look cute in the hospital. TonightKaNikki Jakarta retwisted my locs for me so i don’t have to be in the hospital looking like my hair needs medical attention! We ate Chinese and watched Grey’s Anatomy, Scandal, and How to Get Away with Murder. I’m hooked on ABC Thursday nights! My last doctor’s appt. before the c-section is tomorrow. I’m making a list of things to ask the doctor. I want to know how how my insides look! Lol! You’re only supposed to have 3 C-sections but we may want one more child after the wedding. I want to know about the shots the baby will get a after birth, how long I have to stay in the hospital, and the closing procedure she’ll use for the surgery. A FB friend said she dreamed that I was posting pics of the baby on Facebook. It’s crazy bc earlier I was thinking what if I go into my appt. and the doctor says “we’re taking you in now!” I think I’m just anxious. Skylar will come when she’s ready! Who knows? Maybe she’ll be ready before Oct. 2nd. #countdowntobirth #ShellysBelly #BabySkylar
I am more hungry now than I’ve been the past 8 months. I’m not craving anything I’m just hungry every 3-4 hours. I talked to Imani and Josiah today about the realities of having a new lil sister. I asked Imani about not being the only girl. Her only concern is having the darkest skin of her siblings. I had no clue she would say that. We explored that a bit. I asked Josiah how he’d feel now that he isn’t the youngest. He is not concerned about that. His only concern is that Paul never leaves us bc he does not approve of raising kids without fathers around. We explored that a bit. The convo was a loving balance of comedy and concerns. We concluded with the thought that we’re about to have a whole family. We now have a mom, a dad, siblings and a dog. This is new, different, and happy. I want all my children to know how much I love them as individuals. They all mean so much to me. I look forward to being the best mommy I can no matter how old they get. They each deserve to feel their own type of special love. #countdowntobirth #ShellysBelly #BabySkylar
Who needs to touch their toes anyway? NOT ME! Spent the morning cuddling with Paul. Made a list of things we still need. Two of the things I really want are a boppy pillow and a baby book. Yea, we didn’t get a baby book. We have to have that! We don’t have many baby bottles but I don’t plan on bottle feeding for at least a month. I had cool convos with Paul’s mom and my mom today. I’m so sleepy and wishing my nephew would just stay sleep with me. He’s a year old and energetic. Sleeping all day is not happening! I have no clue how people manage having small children while pregnant. I’m slowing down and he’s speeding up. Skylar is snuggled head down at the bottom of my midsection. I can’t walk or stand long without pain. I’m thinking she will be between 7 and 8 pounds. I’m getting anxious! #countdowntobirth #BabySkylar#ShellysBelly
Day 10: spent last night and all of today with Jo at the Inova Pediatric Sleep Center. He was there for a sleep eval. but it served as much needed Mommy-Josiah time. I am keeping track of Skylar’s movements. She’s moving as she should. I am having major heartburn so she should have a head full of hair. My dad confirmed that he is coming up for my delivery. I am happy that my mom, her mate, my dad, my brother, Paul’s mom and my kids will be at the hospital when I have the baby. Feeling surrounded by love and support means so much to me! As night falls I am feeling thankful, a little nervous, anxious, and optimistic. #CountdownToBirth#ShellysBelly#BabySkylar
Today’s meditation was about operating with secure energy vs insecure energy. About a year ago, during a Reiki session it was revealed that I was living in fear. The person who performed the session supplied me with a mantra – “the universe will protect me.” Since then, I repeat this mantra to myself anytime fear arises in my spirit. Today’s meditation was a reminder that feeling safe allows me to overcome the fear of not knowing what will happen next in my life.
1. Observe and be with my feelings. I don’t usually want to have any feelings, therefore I deny them often. Being pregnant doesn’t allow this. This is a great time to engage in my feelings.
2. Insecure Energy. When I feel insecure I feel anxious and I throw myself into planning mode. I try to calculate the move of every significant person in my life and every dollar in my bank account. Insecurity clouds my judgement of what to do and leaves me with lots of questions.
3. Secure Energy. When I feel secure I feel confident, unstoppable, immortal even. These are the most powerful moments in my life. These are the moments where I usually have the most random idea which ends up impacting the most people.
4. Meditation is powerful. Who knew that sitting down, hushing up, and breathing could result in better health!
5. Safety is real. Safe is something I can actually be.
6. I speak up, I stand up, I walk in what I feel because I feel safe doing so.
7. The world is more safe than we have been led to believe.
8. Feeling insecure will create a fear of things that are not real.
9. I am good at reminding myself that I am safe. I am now moving into a space of maintaining feelings of security for longer periods of time.
10. Fear and security are like switches in the brain. When fear is on, security is off. When security is on, fear is off.